I thought I’d dealt with that but perhaps I haven’t and this is one way to start. I feel like there’s something broken in me from all the sex and I feel like I need to heal. I just know that for the foreseeable future I need to let it go. Tired of the never ending, nonstop “hunt.” Just TIRED. Tired of “performing” for guys who just want to get pounded. I’m tired of seeking something fulfilling from sex. We were never really sexually compatible but I fell for him because he was the first man I’d ever “waited” to have sex with. I have been in love only twice and am now separated from the first true “love of my life.” We were married for 5+ years and of course “open” for the last few. I don’t consider myself any kind of sex addict, it’s just plentiful and I’ve had LOTS of it. I have had sex with well over 1,000 men since I was 19 years old. I am a good looking top guy with 8.5 inches.